if you knew
how hard it was for me
to conquer my fear
to mail you
afraid being rejected
the thought
no everything
in my life
my well build facade
my daily routine
could be destroyed
through my love to you
to move away
to change my life totally
but I’ve already gone too far
opened up too much
to go back again easily
I’m tired of my old life
too much has changed
already in me
feeling trapped