You let yourself strike twice.
You give away your last shirt.
You look after the lost.
Your crown is not of gold.
Your throne is the street.
Your hands and your heart are broken.
How can we then live differently than sheep among wolves?
Me in my 13thfloor studio
First I thought “nicely done” and “that’s it” but half an hour later the painting seemed to me to be too figurative and not abstract enough. I felt that my feelings, which I wanted to express, were still in me and that I was still nervous and not satisfied with the result. Sometimes when I paint I’m somehow in a rush or in a thrill of ecstasy until the painting is done. And here I felt that the painting wasn’t completed. Fortunately the paint was still wet. So what to do? Adding a different color? No the colors were perfect: Black symbolizing death and red symbolizing love. I added a little bit more of these two colors and folded the canvas. As long until I was satisfied with the result. By the way I made a big mess in my flat because I accidentally stepped in the color and spread it through my whole apartment. But it was worth it.
I like this painting very much. Especially the round part in the midst. It is so vivid and organic like a pulsating heart. The transformation of the painting became to me to an awesome symbol of our spiritual journey. Let me put it this way:
Praying transforms a normal heart into a mystic heart.
I remember as I inherited a little fortune after my parents’ death some people saw me with other eyes. They became unnatural respectfully as if they have something else in mind but I was the same simple guy as before. You never know if people respect and love you because of your money and your good looking or if they mean your personality, your true self.
I want to be respected and loved for what I am and not for what I possess.
God make me sensitive to recognize the true intention of people and create in me a heart that can see the whole human besides his / her money or beauty. If I succeed, don’t let me forget that I’m still the same simple guy I was before.