A woman with courage

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24 A great multitude followed him, and they pressed upon him on all sides. 25 A certain woman, who had an issue of blood for twelve years, 26 and had suffered many things by many physicians, and had spent all that she had, and was no better, but rather grew worse, 27 having heard the things concerning Jesus, came up behind him in the crowd, and touched his clothes. 28 For she said, “If I just touch his clothes, I will be made well.” 29 Immediately the flow of her blood was dried up, and she felt in her body that she was healed of her affliction. 30 Immediately Jesus, perceiving in himself that the power had gone out from him, turned around in the crowd, and asked, “Who touched my clothes?” 31 His disciples said to him, “You see the multitude pressing against you, and you say, ‘Who touched me?’” 32 He looked around to see her who had done this thing. 33 But the woman, fearing and trembling, knowing what had been done to her, came and fell down before him, and told him all the truth. 34 He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace, and be cured of your disease.” (Mk 5:25-34)

This healing story is the only one which describes what Jesus felt or what was going on, when Jesus healed people: “Jesus, perceiving in himself that the power had gone out from him…” what makes this story so authentic and is for me a proof that Jesus’ miracles weren’t only thought of by the writers of the New Testament as modern theology often assumed.

A woman who had an “issue with blood” was seen in the Jewish religion as impure and had to stay away from the temple. Usually Jesus touched the sick humans to heal them. But here it is the other way around. The woman by herself takes the initiative and touches Jesus. Is that because she is so self-confident and courageous that she dares to touch Jesus? Yes indeed she is courageous. Therefore because she dares to hope. She risks to be disappointed. She trusts and believes in Jesus who is her last chance. If he can’t help me who else can? She put all her confidence, all her trust not in herself but in Jesus, who doesn’t let her down.

Another word for such an unconditional trust is faith. Later she isn’t fearing and trembling because she has broken a taboo or because of Jesus but she has experienced God’s power which hasn’t only cured her illness but has healed her as whole person. She is well again and can live from now on in peace. The main emphasis is in the penultimate sentence mentioned at first: “Your faith has made you well.” Peace for you and at last “be cured of your disease.”

We hardly have as Christians the healing power of Jesus to heal the bodily diseases nowadays. But we can show people their own value what makes them whole and well inside. We can’t only clarify other humans with words that they are accepted and loved, words are the weakest means in that case, but we can value people by listening to their issues. And we can touch people with our hands. We can show other humans that hands not only injure and hurt but also can be tender.

We know from own experiences how well we feel when we get a friendly and hearty hug without any sexual connotation, without force and without clinging.

I know by own experience how important it is for a wounded soul to be touched. You are appreciated, God’s peace may be with you!

Dear Daisy

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your heart is like the sun
your tender arms
aren’t touched by the drops
or are this tears
maybe my own
suffering together
with all what suffers
and is wounded
blessed are those
who still can cry
how strong are those
who can show their true faces
risk to be beaten again
in their vulnerable openness
which is not weakness
but beauty strength and love

Martha and Mary: Be and listen

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As they went on their way, he entered into a certain village, and a certain woman named Martha received him into her house. She had a sister called Mary, who also sat at Jesus’ feet, and heard his word. But Martha was distracted with much serving, and she came up to him, and said, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister left me to serve alone? Ask her therefore to help me.”
Jesus answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is needed. Mary has chosen the good part, which will not be taken away from her.” (Luke 10:38-42)

The hardest thing in life is to do nothing. To hear inside. To listen what’s next. Church and society have been burdening us with a lot of loads. In the old days with religious laws “You have to be this or that way to be alright. God only accepts you, if…”, these days with other words of society but the same meaning “You have to wear this brand of clothes, to use this mobile or to drive this car to be cool. If you don’t travel around the whole world you are boring. If you don’t look like Gisele Bündchen, Naomi Campbell, Cindy Crawford or Kate Moss, you aren’t beautiful.

Nowadays we understand individuality and self-realization as the “freedom” of choosing between different outfits. But our real inner identity isn’t touched at all by the things we possess and which outfits we wear. Vice versa. Too often we are possessed by the stuff we have, too often we are possessed by our ideas of status, success and luxury. What makes us worthwhile, what gives us value, what makes us precious and lovable are not the things we are possess outside. Is not a special behavior to fit in society and are not even special character traits too.

I live in an urban settlement where especially poor people live. Most of them hardly have enough money to scratch along. When they allow you a closer look behind their facade and they start telling you their stories, you would be astonished how precious and lovable they are besides their shabby clothes.

Don’t worry how you can please me. Don’t make any effort that I accept you. I know your true self. Come with me. My yoke is easy and my burden is light.

Empty Hands

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God’s hands are empty
because he has given us everything
what we need for a fulfilled life


Gottes hände sind leer
weil er uns alles gegeben hat
was wir für ein erfülltes leben brauchen