When I was rich…

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I remember as I inherited a little fortune after my parents’ death some people saw me with other eyes. They became unnatural respectfully as if they have something else in mind but I was the same simple guy as before. You never know if people respect and love you because of your money and your good looking or if they mean your personality, your true self.
I want to be respected and loved for what I am and not for what I possess.

God make me sensitive to recognize the true intention of people and create in me a heart that can see the whole human besides his / her money or beauty. If I succeed, don’t let me forget that I’m still the same simple guy I was before.

Under my skin

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all the feelings
scars and bloody past
every fear and torture
in the memory of my heart
everything that is hidden
in front of me
is obvious to you
all my unexpressed darkness
which I am afraid to touch
is in your hands of light
every scream I never cried
has been heard in struggling night
you hold me
when I give myself up
you heal me with your love
when I harm myself
clinging to the past
you are under my skin
my real identity
I don’t know
but you

Praying – 2nd Edition (Free Epub)

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2nd Edition!!! – If somebody would asked me “What would you make differently in your life, if you could start from scratch?” I would answer: “I would pray more and would trust in God more.” “Praying”, the trustful conversation with God is so naturally for the Christians like the air we need to breathe. That is easy said. Is it clear to us, that our faith dwarfs to an ideology, when we don’t pray anymore? Our faith lives by the prayer. Praying is the breathing of the faith. And nevertheless: often we don’t know how we should pray. Even the disciples of Jesus, which come from a rich Jewish praying tradition, don’t know exactly what they should say in the prayer. Actually astonishing, they yet knew the Psalms, the prayer book of the Jews. “How shall we pray?” they ask Jesus. His answer is the “Our Father”. But prayer is much more.What prayer is shall be reflected in this little book. In addition to that I show with own prayers how one can pray. Different scriptures illuminate how the Jews, how Jesus and the early Christians prayed.

Footsteps in the Darkness (Free Epub)

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I’ve gone through a lot of dark times in my life. Especially if you are thin-skinned and sensitive like me, you get fast touched by the events around you. But I don’t want to become cool and tough because vulnerability is the main characteristic of a fulfilled human life. When you can’t feel pain you can’t feel joy as well. My prayers and blessings are the result of my struggles against the darkness. They helped me to overcome the times when I had the blues. Maybe they can comfort you too or inspire you to write down your own feelings and prayers.